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Today is just one of those days.
One of those days that I just want to go back to bed. Back to my dreams and away from reality.
One of those days when I just want to give up and let ED win.
BUT instead of shutting down my thoughts and just going to sleep; I’m trying something new. I’m doing what my therapist asked and am writing down my thoughts before I just go to sleep and try to shut them out.
When you work around food and you’re having a day like this, your brain goes wackadoodle.
All day all I heard in my head was “I want to be skinny.” and some glimpses of what people were saying to me.
Everyone was tuned out by ED singing his tune in my head.
“Look at that girl, that used to be you.”
“You could be like that.”
“Let me take control.”
He knows I’m weak, but I am not giving in.
I am stronger than him. He may be singing his tune, but I am not giving in.
I will conquer and win!
Today is a successful war of beating ED.
Nicole: 1 ED: 0
You talk to anyone in recovery, and I guarantee you that they will sum it up with one sentence, “it’s a roller coaster.”
You’ve got to hang on tight!
